<p>fortheroses,
PLEASE make a phone call to the counselling center from your college. I have been where you are. The call will be hard to make. The first visit will be hard as well. But if they have a decent therapist, or can refer you to one, it will be worthwhile. You are NOT going crazy, but you do need someone to listen, to reassure you, and to help you find the confidence to speak with professors and employers.</p>
<p>It may be that you will never find close friends. But you can learn to function and to feel better about yourself.</p>