<p>“Having free time my junior year actually made me feel so useless that I almost attempted suicide at the end of last semester when even with a somewhat mellow schedule.”</p>
<p>Is this hyperbole or were you seriously suicidal? If the latter, then the last thing you need is to be in a stressful, hyper-competitive academic university or college where Bs make you feel worthless. What you do need is to ask your parents or school guidance counselor to help you find a psychologist who can work with you, especially during the very stressful college application year, so you retain some perspective and can be checked for depression and other potential risk factors. There is no reason to suffer alone. Ask for help.</p>
<p>If this was merely hyperbole - and you are just feeling miserable and mad at yourself - then T26E4 is right on. Start exploring all the amazing schools that are out there for kids with less than perfect grades. You’ll be astounded at how good your options are - and once you are in college, it’s a clean slate and you start over.</p>