Read the last 5-6 pages of this thread where the raging discussion on direct entry vs regular route is going on.
Which year are you in HS now?
In life we don’t get everything, but some people succeed in whatever they are passionate and find ways to reach their goal. Also need to go 1 step at a time. First complete HS, then UG , then MD and then Neuro residency. It is a loooong way to go.