OP- time to start falling in love with a few more colleges. If you get into Yale- no harm, no foul. And if you don’t, you’ve got your applications to Vassar and Skidmore and Northwestern and Vanderbilt and Haverford ready to go. Win win!
Yale is fabulous- and so are another 50 or so colleges with slightly easier admit rates where you could thrive and become your best self.