Hello! Sending those virtual prayers your way. Yes, go to your college health center. It is true that your parents won’t know. I’m sorry your mom had such a strong and wrong statement about therapists. Many things in your message sound like depression. Help is close by on campus, please reach out. You can call Student Health Services to get the phone number for the mental health counseling dept.
Other than that which IMO is top priority, surely there are students at your school who do not fit the mold you describe. Does your college have an online activities database that you could use to search for some groups/clubs where you could find some students that sound like they would be more your type?