<p>I think she was isolated and perhaps brainwashed during her youth (on account of her being home schooled up until CC). But I don’t think she was terribly unhappy. Maybe she didn’t even know other kids even had friends, and was limitedly exposed to other kids, or maybe she was convinced she didn’t need any.</p>
<p>I am surprised your relationship with your family is not great. Why is this? Do they support you in going to college? </p>
<p>You posts do indicate that you are a bit troubled I think. I would recommend continuing to talk to someone, even if it’s just CC. It’s unfortunate (though not entirely unreasonable) that some of the reactions you get won’t be too kind as you probably know. Mostly people will just initially fail to take you seriously, I think.</p>
<p>Also, I don’t know if your deficiency in math is something relevant here. You certainly write quite well, even if your posts happen to be a lot about yourself and have a peculiar superficiality to them (but I think that’s quite expected, really, considering your background). Did your mom pass a fear of math on to you (did she teach you apprehensively, and so on)?</p>
<p>I’m sorry if what I said was critical; I’m not really criticizing you, or trying to do that. You have had enough of that I imagine…</p>