I am so sorry that you are going through this!! You are not pathetic please don’t feel the way. You are a valuable person with a lot to offer your school. It is hard sometimes to see others and you feel like they have it so easy making friends etc. But I agree that there are a lot of lonely kids in college. Social media doesn’t help so try not to look at that too much. No one posts them by themself doing homework on their bed or walking around a dining hall trying to find someone to eat with. Does your college have a counseling department? If they do you should talk to someone there about your anxiety. Get involved in a club at your school, most schools have so many clubs that you should find something that interests you. Like stated above a service organization is a great idea those into service are kind thoughtful people. I know it is hard to put yourself out there but it will pay off in the end. Sending you good thoughts 