What was your intention when you posted here? Assuming this post is legitimate, it sure seems to me that you’re looking for some kind of feedback or advice. Please help me out here by telling me what you are looking for.
Meanwhile, here’s some feedback. If you indeed are at Harvard, then you are intelligent enough to know that people don’t inherit “loser” genetics. You didn’t get into Harvard by portraying yourself as a loser, that’s certain.
Tell us, what got you in? Maybe we can go back to the beginning, before you became certain that you are a loser. Notice that no one else agrees with your self-assessment.