You write well and you obviously can “act” (good “mask-wearer”). And I bet you have a lot more worthy qualities that people around you can tell and know. Social awkwardness is really pretty common, and if you think you are delayed in that area, time will heal it, you will catch up. For now, keep “acting”. And if you don’t think talking to a real person will help, keep talking anonymously here with us. We won’t judge you. Give us some examples that you think you are not dealing well socially, maybe some of us have gone through the exact same things and could tell you a trick or two.
Take care of yourself.
If you believe genetics, you have to agree that it is a mighty triumph against all odds to be born and alive today. Don’t give it up on yourself. You have many many tomorrows.