Your argument is that if I join a charity and help others I won’t feel like a loser? I don’t know, maybe. I think I’ve gotten what I wanted out of this thread. I’m just going to go back into hiding like in high school. I’m feeling pretty resigned to my position at this point. Maybe I’ll eventually build up the courage to go seek therapy as recommended by so many. For now, I think I’ll just wallow in sadness.