<p>Thanks, you guys.
A lot of this has helped.
Well, it would have, but I’ve pretty much given up on applying to anywhere else. I can’t afford anymore application fees and, even if the application were free, I’m not giving collegeboard any more money by sending in more score reports. I’ve already spent whatever I had just to cover AP tests.
I guess I was just depressed for a while. My school is relatively low-achieving so I thought I had a chance. Only one other person had broken 2000 on the SATs and that person doesn’t have anywhere near the amount of ECs and community service as I do.
It’s just so hard for me because I look at my list and all I see are safety schools with the exception of UCLA, of course. I don’t care so much about prestige, but I’d always pictured myself applying to great schools with cool alumni. Schools ranked high on the list of best colleges in the nation.
I’ll just keep telling myself that it doesn’t matter.
I’m going to grad school anyways. Maybe by then I’ll be smart and rich and I’ll have enough brainpower and genius in me to go to a really amazing school. For the next for years, however, I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to shake the feeling that I’m just “settling.”
There’s a thread about this somewhere. I need to scroll through it to make myself feel better.</p>