Yeah, I definitely do have a bit of a problem with my mental state, not that I am struggling, but I don’t think it is healthy to think of college admissions every single day of my life and always trying to find a way to beef up my “resume”.
I came to the US in 5th grade and my parents are Russian, so I was raised with them always being on me that I have to go to a good college and just kind of a stereotypical Asian-type parent thing.
Thank you so much for your input. That definitely makes me feel better.
In the back of my head I know that CS is not a hard major to find a with, and for a while I accepted that and just wanted to go to NC State, a school easier to get into than UNC or anything else, but for some reason that thinking that I will get very good connections at MIT came back, so hopefully that will go away.
Thank you so much again. Maybe I will pass on some things that I do not particularly enjoy and focus on the ones I actually love and feel very passionate about.