<p>dalealumus: This whole culture is total superficial conformist bull crap, and not just adults who are far better than the sleazy phonies I have to deal with on a day-to-day basis. I’m not going to college to contribute anything, if I had that mentality I’d be a liberal and there’s no way I’d be going to Hillsdale. I’m going for my own personal education.</p>
<p>Once again there’s the not knowing me coming in to play. I was so severely shy and had such low self-esteem I couldn’t talk to people my own age very well. I’d become radically nervous and would lose the ability to think of what to say. haha “World walking on eggs shells”, ya right. You really have to overcome the idea that in order to be confrontational to an insult like Fencersmom gave to me you have to actually be insulted. Do you not understand non-conformity? I don’t want the world to make me feel special, the world started off in the dumps and is only going to Hell. If the world approved of me it would be a bad sign. I’m not the emo or hippy type of non-conformist, or any other type. I formed my ideology, theology, etc on my own and disagree with everyone around me on it. The goal in my reply wasn’t to express a feeling that I am entitled to being treated sensitively. I’m actually great at destroying people’s self-confidence and reputations while being honest-Not that I do(I don’t!), but back when I used to hate my sister…-I’m not some fragile child and I don’t view myself as one. If anything I view myself as one of the few thinkers rebelling against a country and a world of completely irrationality and idiocy. My goal in life is to change the entire structure.</p>
<p>I already have a job, of course not a real job. Interviews don’t intimidate me, I can be pretty appealing to adults because I give off an honest-vibe and I’m pretty good at twisting little things into bigger things.</p>
<p>Homeschoolingmom: Thanks, you sound very nice and caring. In all respect, I still don’t view any of those activities even listed as meaningful. I can do them since I realize their importance in making it into college, even though that’s a little like prostituting who I am for college. I’m not terribly shy any more, I’ve joined a Pentecostal youth group (ugh… Pentecostalism sucks, it’s sort of crazy). I have some various things to list, and I’m going to join clubs at my school. Thanks HomeschoolingMom!</p>