@MasterMira you seem to be doing quite well (of course unless you aren’t personally satisfied with your effort and learning) - Really what colleges want to see is growth as a student and a person, even if that means you start off worse than you hoped. If you are unsatisfied take it as a learning opportunity, and improve - colleges will notice and seek you
Otherwise, learning, growth, and education (high school and college) are all an endurance event, and getting discouraged after the first hill won’t help you on a marathon
Good luck to you!