How to deal with the guilt? [I got no financial aid]

I do want my kids to be responsible and ethical. I’m happy when they’re happy, but proud of their good judgment. OP, you need to grow past the prior mistakes, set the right course and become an effective young adult.

I don’t think it matters which college, if you resolve to face life maturely from today on. This is your life. Going to the cheaper college doesn’t absolve you from that responsibility. There are no shortcuts. Make yourself proud.