<p>If I’m deferred…well, it’s the most likely outcome, and I’m nothing exceptional, so not going to make a big deal out of it.</p>
<p>Rejected, well, that would suck, but it’s pretty much the same thing, just more bruising to my pride.</p>
<p>Accepted…well…if that ever happens, I’ll think about it when it does.</p>
<p>I figured I would just wish all you EA applicants the best of luck today.</p>
<p>I’m not hoping for a rejection, but I don’t exactly want a deferral because I don’t want to wait more. I didn’t interview, so I really doubt I’m going to be accepted. If I get rejected I will probably won’t react much because there are so many other schools to hope for.</p>
<p>I keep on telling myself that I will likely be deferred, but deep down inside me I have glimpses of hope that I will get in. I can’t see myself being straight out rejected though…that would suck. But whatever happens, happens.</p>
<p>…26 minutes, 33 seconds.</p>
<p>D:</p>
<p>I shouldn’t care, for I am doomed to deferral and rejection.</p>
<p>And yet, I do.</p>
<p>Allowing myself this false hope cannot possibly be wise.</p>
<p>And yet, I do.</p>
<p>Got deferred, tried to play it off, but my heart won’t stop beating.
DARNITTTT</p>
<p>This is how I reacted to it:</p>
<p>Schrödinger’s Decision</p>
<p>12/17/11—12:02 pm, Eastern Standard Time:</p>
<p>I can only think of one way to deal with the next fifteen minutes—to freewrite. That’s what they taught me at writer camp, and, with now only thirteen minutes to go, it’s the only defense mechanism I’ve got.</p>
<p>So, if, technically, Schrödinger’s cat was both alive and dead when unobserved, does that mean I have been all three of accepted, rejected, and deferred by MIT, at least, for the next twelve minutes? That’s certainly a wave-function that I’m not eager to collapse, especially as, statistically speaking, i am very very likely to be deferred, with a not vanishingly small chance of flat-out rejection on top of that. And now there are nine minutes left.</p>
<p>I wonder. It’s amazing how much you can tell about a decision based on its first word. It doesn’t collapse the wave-function, but it certainly provides a great deal of information. The Questbridge deferral letter, for instance, opened with “thank”, if I remember correctly—obviously a bad sign. Congratulations, similarly, would be clearly a good one. But there are the in-between words, as well (seven more minutes). What about “we”? That could preface “we regret to inform you” as easy as it could “we are pleased to inform you”. And if it begins with my name, for instance, I won’t even know what to think. the CalTech acceptance letter that my friend was sent began “It is an honor”—obviously a dead giveaway, but not necessarily due to the word “it” itself (five more minutes). And I can’t claim to have seen a flat-out rejection yet, only deferrals—so those two categories may well open differently. Hm. I think that, if the college were actually rejecting me, they’d be too courteous to open with anything but “thank you for applying to mit”, deferrals included, but that’s just a hypothesis (three minutes left).</p>
<p>Of course, this being MIT, they may well try to fool their students in some amusing manner. Subverted expectations, and all that. So, right now, Schrödinger’s Decision opens with almost every word in the dictionary, to varying degrees of likelihood. Even though it probably opens with “thank”, and the majority of my fellow early applicants, all currently waiting with bated breath, no doubt (one minute left), are to be rejected or deferred in about thirty more seconds.</p>
<p>But, for now, the wave-function remains un-collapsed, and MIT has accepted me, even if I’ve also been both deferred and rejected. Sigh.</p>
<p>Zero more minutes.</p>
<p>Random song on my itunes playlist…Glycerine, by Bush. Ahah.</p>
<p>Right.</p>
<p>Let’s do this.</p>
<p>The site’s slow, everyone’s here…the time, indeed, is now…</p>
<p>…Is it in my e-mail?</p>
<p>Hah, went to the wrong site. decisions.mit.edu, not my.mit.edu.</p>
<p>Now it’s Lights, by Journey.</p>
<p>Let’s do this. For real this time.</p>
<p>Begins with “We”. as in “We have completed”. Suspected deferral, but let’s go on.</p>
<p>And, deferral. Well. Nothing surprising. The wave-function has fallen exactly where I thought it would. And I am unsurprised.</p>
<p>…And yet, and yet…</p>
<p>For just a moment there, i was in…</p>
<p>Here’s what happens: everyone that got accepted can’t understand the pain of being deferred/rejected and plays it off with “its all good! you’ll end up going somewhere else great!” but the truth of the matter is we’re only stalking CC and the blogs constantly because MIT is our #1 school and nothing can live up to it. So how am I reacting to this? Pretty much, wherever i get accepted will still be a disappointment and will never live up to MIT. all of my life goals are now officially crushed.</p>
<p>germfreak: <333
don’t make that true…</p>
<p>^ this is what happens if you “put all your eggs into one basket.” Everything completely splatters.</p>
<p>This is what happened: I logged onto the website, saw the word “deferred,” and barely reacted at all. I told several people I was deferred. They were sympathetic. I’m truthfully not that torn up about it. Just excited for Chicago on Monday!</p>
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<p>MIT is far from the only thing someone could be rejected from.</p>
<p>Also, literally everyone from my school that applied early got deferred, to my knowledge. So I’m in good company…</p>
<p>I literally cried tears of joy (accepted)</p>
<p>I cried, my mom cried, my sister cried, and my dad screamed. We’re one emotional family.</p>
<p>mom screamed while i tried acting calm in front of my therapist. now mom is frantically calling everyone in the family x]</p>
<p>are we gonna get tubes this year??</p>
<p>S went for a walk and is now outside working on a rock garden project and then will come back in to work on applications. </p>
<p>Today was supposed to be a good day, but instead we have gotten double un-good… S deferred and I was rejected (from a job that I am desperately trying to get to help send S to college).</p>
<p>haha @germfreak…whenever i see someone that got accepted say that…i think the same thing…its hard not to be pessimistic but almost 300 kids get accepted from early action so we all still have a chance. but i agree that i do constantly check CC and the blogs because i am obsessed with MIT too… :(</p>