But maybe also because of society’s standards. I’ll give you that.
“maybe then my parents will acknowledge me lol”. It’s interesting that you say that because there are a lot of similar individuals in your position (good college to please parents, etc…) but again, you must remember that you’re going to ultimately find happiness in doing the things that YOU love to do. Don’t let your parents/societal pressure determine your ultimate path in life 
best of luck!