For reference…here is this student’s chance me thread which has some great advice in it. This student is currently a HS junior.
I hope you are getting some professional help for your depression.
You don’t have to attend an Ivy League or any other elite school to be successful.
I hope you find some sure things for acceptance on your college application list, that you would be happy to attend, that are affordable. Those should be the first colleges you add to your application list.