I’m here for you, and I’m worried about you, and I want you to call your parents. Go home. Call the school, and ask for the rest of the semester off. Trust me, they will allow it. It doesn’t sound like Harvey Mudd is the right school for you, and that is perfectly ok. You can take the time to catch your breath, go home where you can be safe and cared for, and then you can decide what you want to do next. If you have already gotten on your plane and are back at school, I’d like you to please call your parents from there. Trust me, it is perfectly ok to take time away from school, and regroup. It is also perfectly ok to go home, take a few classes at a community college, and decide which school you want to go to that better suits you. You are obviously bright, motivated, and mature enough to recognize that you aren’t in a good place, and that Harvey Mudd is not a happy experience for you, and not likely to get better.