<p>I think that you are very mature for your age, and that might be part of why you are feeling this way. I’m the same way.</p>
<p>I totally understand your “burned out” feeling-I’ve dealt with the same thing. I worked so hard in high school, especially the last couple of years. My junior year was difficult-I was taking a lot of IB classes, was in clubs, and then to top it off I had mono most of the year. I had no study halls either. I took a couple of weeks off the summer before senior year, and then I got a job. I worked at my job my entire senior year-some weeks I was working 30 hours. I still had all of those IB classes, I had to apply to college, and for the beginning of the year I still had to deal with the lingering effects of being sick. I thought once I got done with applying to schools it would get easier, but it didn’t. My application for my top choice school basically got messed up (and no it was not my fault, it was the school’s). On top of dealing with that stress, my job was super stressful. Let’s just say I was barely hanging on through most of the year.</p>
<p>I ended up deciding to apply to a community college. I know everybody just hates the idea of that, I was one of those people at first. I thought that I had worked so hard, NO WAY was I going to a school for “bad students” and “slackers” (now I see how ignorant I was). But I just had to suck it up, look at the negatives and positives of my situation, and make the best decision for me that I thought I could make. At first a lot of people looked down on me for my decision, but now I feel that I made a good choice. I’ll be saving money, and I can live at home (I wasn’t too keen on the whole dorm and partying idea). I ended up getting scholarships to pay for my entire first year, and I’m hoping to get some for next year as well. I even was able to take this summer off (I quit my crappy job) and relax a little bit before college since I got the scholarships.</p>
<p>I guess what I’m trying to say here, is you need to decide what you think is the best decision for you. Don’t do what everyone else tells you to do, just because they tell you to. Like I said, everyone told me “don’t go to the community college” but now that I’ll have really low student debts when I’m done, and they’ll have $150k+, they tell me I was smart. Even the doctors I know are telling me I made a really smart move. You have to do what you think is the best for you, and it will all work out. </p>
<p>You seem really set on going to BU, but is there any way you would consider going to even a local state school? (I’m not going to push the community college thing on you, because 99% of the people on here seem against those). You could go part time, work a little, travel some. Maybe even do some internships and figure out what you want to do? No offense or anything, but I thought I read you didn’t know what you wanted to do yet, and that’s ok, even a lot of adults don’t. If you still aren’t sure, is it worth it to shell out all of that money a year? I’ve known kids who think they want to be engineers, but figure out their passion is music their last semester of college. They’re waitressing in NYC, with an almost complete engineering degree under their belt, with a bunch of school debt. </p>
<p>I’m sorry for the super long post, I got rambling there. Basically, just go with what your gut is telling you. From what you’ve said, I would take a gap semester and think about things a little. I hope I helped at least somewhat.</p>
<p>Btw, just saw this post is from about a week ago, so I might be too late with my response. Did you end up deciding?</p>