Please go immediately see a person that you feel safe with, your mom, your brother, a friend, a neighbour, a teacher, a doctor, anyone. Don’t be alone right now. Your life isn’t over. You have excellent qualifications and you will find a college that fits you better than the commuter school in your hometown. It may happen in time for this fall or it may happen for next year. It’s okay to take a year off and work and reapply. People here will help you. Just so any safe until you feel ready to go back to work.