You have great stats, and you have many expert posters here to guide you in your gap year.
Grieve for a day or two, and then jump back in on this thread. Or start a new thread with a Gap year title.
Normally the advice to “I hate my safety” is to accept it, think positively, and jump in and join clubs and find ways to like it. But you have a unique situation, and there are lots of people here ready to walk you through a gap year. Reapplying to a better set of schools that can meet your financial need will change your life.
Don’t suffer in silence. Ask for help in processing your sadness. You have reason to be sad. You did all the right things, but did not get the result you wanted.
But the great news is that you have s second chance! There are huge rules to learn and obey in Gap Year, and there are things you can do today to be sure you have all your teacher recommendations set.
Protect your Frehman Starus at all costs. Freshmen get all the money. Transfers get little to nothing.
Plan to work and save money over your Gap year. Continue your passions in some way if possible.
You can do this. We can help.