When I was in school, decades ago now, I joined clubs and went to lectures and performances on campus, and even tried enjoying the once-a-week Ratskellar event. Some of that was fine, but some it is was simply outside of my interest level and/or comfort zone.
When a student group decided to put on a play, I went to the audition to see if that would help to fill up some the empty, lonely space. I walked into one of the buildings and heard someone at the other end of the long hall singing a song that I loved and which was thought to be “culturally” outside of what I might be drawn to. To the voice singing, I responded with the next few lines, then the voice responded to me, and this continued until we could see each other. We ran to each other and embraced, and fell down into one another laughing. Besties after that.
It was a strange moment, and a strange thing to do, and I leaned into my loneliness and my … uniqueness… and went with it. Turns out, the other girl did, too.
Have you placed yourself in the places where you might be able to “show” who YOU are? There may be someone waiting for you.