<p>Your letter really brought back some sad memories for me (a 46 yr old mom of a freshman UCD student) & my college experience. Getting out of the house & into a different environment is a good thing for you. Being emotionally upset like you describe tells me you need to see your doctor & tell her or him what you’ve told the world here. You don’t have to tell your mom what’s going on inside you without another sympathetic adult there to help buffer what might be said. Going to UCSB may not be the best thing for you right now. If you do start there in a few weeks, then make sure you head for the counseling center right away & take advantage of the free services they provide. Getting counseling is NOT a sign of weakness or severe illness. Many college students have difficulty transitioning from home to school. It does sound like your Mom is having lots of trouble with this. My mom did, too. Don’t make the mistake I did – I kept trying to go to school & dropping out of classes, because of the emotional turmoil I was in. Good luck to you. Reaching out on this forum shows that you are trying to do what’s best for yourself.</p>