This is a first world problem. Your attitude is a self-fulfilling prophecy which will end you up as an unsuccessful student. Why wouldn’t it? With an attitude like yours, it’s no wonder you aren’t accomplishing anything you feel proud of. You are a self-defeatist, and it’s clear that unless everything is going as you hope, then everything is a disappointment. There is one thing any one person has control over in his lifetime, and that is his attitude… Only YOU can change your attitude WHEN you decide to. Only then will you be an active participant in the game of life.
ps. Therapy works when the patient WANTS change, otherwise it’s a self indulgent exercise.