As the parent of three young adults who are out of college and grad school reading your posts my first thought is “This student needs a gap year”.
I would seriously think of taking a gap year so you can try on a variety of hats without the pressure of picking a direction or the stress of competing. Maybe even do something completely different like travel or work on a farm to expose yourself to what is out there.
I think many students go to college reflexively because it is what they believe they are supposed to do and not what they necessarily want to do but because it is the easy next step to take after high school. But talk to any professor and they will tell you the best students are the ones who did a gap year and entered college knowing what they wanted to get out of the experience and having a better understanding of themselves.
In the words of Angela Merkel who gave Harvard’s Commencement speech this week, “Don’t just do what is easy or what is expected.”