I’m not exactly sure why I need to defend myself on an anonymous message board, but let me just add that I DID allow for stress/radiation, etc to be the cause for some time. It made sense. A BT is stressful and radiation can do weird things. I can even believe radiation is the cause of the breathing issues now considering the timing and nothing else (related) seeming to be wrong.
The actual timeline started from BT being diagnosed and treated roughly 4 1/2 years ago. This is also when other things were checked out to be sure the rest was ok - found carpal tunnel via nerve testing and fixed that within a year post radiation.
Three months post radiation - check up - “these” issues. “Radiation + stress - they’ll go away.” Fine. Wait.
Three months later nothing had changed. “Sometimes it takes longer. They’ll go away.” Fine. Wait.
At six months post radiation the radiation doc said none of the issues would be due to radiation at that point and none were due to the tumor itself (except vision issues) due to the location. Check with someone else for the cause. Fine. Make other appointment. Go to other appointment. “Are you tired?” No. “Let’s check with an ENT for the ear/jaw pain + hearing pulse.” Ok.
Make that appt. “Nothing is wrong with the ear/jaw - no additional tumors or cysts or related issues with balance or hearing loss. Trigeminal nerve issues - probably caused by radiation. The radiation doc is wrong saying it’s not caused by this. Take Gabepentin if interested.” Not interested. Don’t want the fatigue that I don’t have and not particularly interested in the suicide warning that comes with the med either. Keep in mind the stress from medical appts, then add the stress of not getting answers and still dealing with issues. Now add in disagreement among the docs about the cause. There are other issues I haven’t mentioned that also aren’t explained.
Go back to PCP. “Take the meds.” No. Can we check vascular? I toss in symptoms - esp hearing pulse - into google and come up with a reputable site saying if it’s not due to tumors/cysts, then it’s usually vascular. “Stay off google. Let’s try another ENT.” Why? There’s no hearing or balance loss. “I really think it’s all stress. Can you think of ways to eliminate stress from your life?”
Yes. I can reduce dr appts, so immediately cancelled all others I had. Then came the battle of dealing mentally with living with the issues with no hope of a fix. That was admittedly very shaky times, but life won. I can now successfully deal with the issues, though naturally always look for ways to improve if I come across something.
Add another year or so - I don’t keep track anymore. I admit there are things like flu shots and tetanus boosters - plus who knows what other sort of “typical” things can happen, so use connections to get a local PCP again keeping far away from discussing much in previous issues. The Fe issue happened (low Fe Sat routine test - work provides these multiphasic blood tests at low cost - take Iron, two months later (maybe less) I make the connection from increased symptoms and new issues (like fatigue) “whoa that’s wrong,” drop Iron, all is well). On my own I was hopeful reducing Fe intake with food might get rid of the chest pains because adding Fe REALLY increased them - same feeling. It didn’t pan out though. Bummer.
Last fall. Breathing issues become super apparent, so I decide it’s probably routine and might have some fix/assistance (asthma) with the previous Navy diagnosis and head back to PCP. Get tested for asthma (Nov last year). Results are “normal.” Really? Then WTH is it? “Out of shape.” Uh, ok… seems very unlikely, but who knows? Slightly up what I’m doing and definitely remain constant with it instead of taking days off. No improvement. Routine visit and I bring it up again - sent to pulmonologist.
I think that catches folks up to date.
I don’t think I’m out of line. I think I’m more vested in what’s going on with my body and whatever it is doesn’t fit the textbook of how things are supposed to look, so doesn’t fit an easy answer. IF I could do things on my own I’d play around with a few other tests (esp vascular) to see if that’s a problem (if so, then take the results to a doctor for a “what now” assessment), but without fatigue being an issue it’s not supposed to be as far as they are concerned, so not worth testing. With my mom’s unexpected diagnosis I’ve also wondered if some form of cancer is possible - never any tests or thoughts about that from any of us - but… will hope that the time involved mean that one isn’t likely.
Otherwise, I’m committed to living with things making the best of what I can via whatever method I can (keeping noise on in the house “stops” most of hearing the pulse, keeping a high salt intake and low fluid intake stops most headaches - I just have to pray it doesn’t kill my kidneys, pure dealing with trigeminal pain, enjoying never getting hungry - hey - there’s one perk!, etc).
So… is this just another one of those or something that can be fixed/helped? I was leaning toward the former when starting this thread. (“Radiation” - and it could be that. It’s plausible.) Now my mind isn’t sure. I am keeping on with June’s appts and will make more decisions as needed afterward.
Sorry for any typos. I’m not proofreading. I actually have life to return to, but the idea that I haven’t given doctors a chance just isn’t reality.