@masterchief1994 - when the time comes to apply to colleges, please please have an adult review your essay submissions.
I am afraid that you do not communicate in such a way that would endear you to an admissions committee. This may be somewhat out of your control due your disability; that I don’t know. But I urge you to to have an adult review your essays for tone.
I am not saying this to insult you. I believe that it’s possible that your disability has affected your ability to filter some of your thoughts appropriately, and that your essays might reflect this to your detriment.