I think people find my personality grating. I can’t carry a conversation. I’m very honest in interviews too which I’ve learned is bad. Originally I didn’t plan to go to college. Out of high school I tried starting a photography business, doing weddings. I was usually up front with the bride and groom, example: “I’ll give you three copies of the photo album. One for you and two for your lawyers after the divorce.”
In grade school they tried to say that I was autistic but I don’t think that’s true. Still I’m convinced my miserable employment is from my personality. I get so depressed. I’ve been prescribed antidepressants over and over again but refuse to take them. In an interview you’re supposed to be upbeat, the most optimistic person in the world but I’m just anhedonic half the time. I think it’s kind of wrong to pathologizes my way of thinking. I need a job where my personality isn’t on trial.