First, I’d like to apologize to @“aunt bea”, not only for the rant I posted, but also some misinformation I provided. I did infact post saying I bought a horse. I completely forgot about it honestly. I did however get the owner to take her back, so other than sanity, I gained most of what I lost back, and I can honestly say I learned a lot. I have considered changing majors and potentially pursuing horses as a hobby rather than a career, but I’m still quite passionate about horses. I think I will continue majoring in equine studies and try creating a better relationship with the department. I don’t know what to do about my visual impairment, but I’m trying to work with the state to acquire a bioptic driver’s license. If not, I guess I’ll have to work where I’ll have housing or an understanding employer.
Second, @dadof2d, I entered college with a very light schedule my first semester. While I was taking 17 hours, several of them were easier classes with not much studying involved. In my second semester, Understanding Old Testament and Psychology and Everyday Life have given me a very difficult time. I simply wasn’t prepared. My first first semester classes gave me a clouded view of college scholarship, but now I’m starting to realize how difficult college can be. It reminds me a lot of Advanced Placement, and it was something I couldn’t handle high school. It was just too overwhelming for me. I’m going to continue trying to obtain my degree and working through my vlasses, but my expectations have lowered significantly. I will strive for an A, but I will understand if I receive a C. The worst case scenario would be community college if it ever does get too overwhelming, but I’ll try to work through it for now.
@austinmshauri, I honestly have no idea. It could perhaps be a lack of adequite social skills, but I’m unsure. I generally try using “small talk” to start something more, but it doesn’t seem to work. I have sometimes wondered if people treat me different due to the more apparent side effects of my visual inpairment, which causes my eyes to squint and shift uncontrollably. I have considered trying to wear sunglasses to hide my eyes to see if it doesn’t change people’s perception of me as I can easily see why some would be deterred by it. Maybe social skills is the problem or something more, but I am unsure. Would you have any advice on starting conversations? I believe my roommate issues are simply due to a mismatch in personalities and interests. I plan on applying for a roommate next semester, and my roommate will be doing the same. It seems we’re not compatible, and I hope next semester may find with a better match. I feel being more specific and open on my roommate application will help me out because I was really general last time, and it found me on a hall with mostly athletes.
@TS0104, I have joined what I can, but I must admit I have struggled a lot with commitment. The trail club was something I joined last semester, but I never went past the first meeting. I joined another group in the equine department exempt from the testing rules, and I have already allowed myself to miss once. I need to stop being lazy. Clubs on campus are very limitted as we are very small. I tried an on campus Christian gathering, but their theological views didn’t line up with mine, but I at least tried. I hope to try the College Republicans next semester, I would have joined in the fall, but I made the mistake of overcommitting. I have attempted making friends in my class, but it didn’t go so well either. I once tried talking to someone in OT 100, and they changed seat afterward. My concerns from my response to Austin are true here. I want to do better, so I’m trying to find the root of the issue, and I can’t help but feel something I’m doing just isn’t socially acceptable or seen as weird.