I’m sorry that your experiences have had negative results.
I have some advice for you which may be interpreted by you as harsh. I have three children who experienced everything in their colleges, so I’m going to give advice as though I were speaking to one of my three children:
I believe that your posting history has been resistant to good advice from experienced posters: @thumper1, @austinmshauri, @bopper, @mom2collegekids, @twoinanddone.
I’ve noticed that everything that is happening to you, is the fault and result of others’ actions.
When people attempt to console you, there is always an excuse: why that won’t work.
I get that you have low vision. I get that you want to work with horses in some capacity.
The facts are that you need vision to work in an equine environment. You need money because horses are expensive. Right now it doesn’t appear like getting a degree in equine studies will give you a career in this area. Why? You have to build relationships and develop friendships and that is not happening such that internships and experiences are not going to happen.
Instead of befriending a new transfer student, you question why the university was giving him preference. Did you wonder why?:
He’s been around horses more than you. He’s had more significant experience “performing” with horses. He probably was a better fit with the horse and just needed the course credit. Why would the staff trust you with any animal if all you bring is complaints and jealousy? Horses don’t need that.
I rode and was around horses most of my youth; these are incredibly beautiful, smart and intuitive animals. They sense EVERYTHING. They can sense disabilities in individuals-perceived and physiological. If you are not truthful to yourself, first and foremost, but use your vision inability as a crutch, the horses do know. My grandfather rode well into his 80’s and he was blind. He always said treat people and animals alike. He spoke to his horse with confidence, but he was also extremely kind and considerate of others.
Your posts come across as harsh and are filled with excuses. Your attempts at friendships are rubbing others the wrong way, including your university staff, and unfortunately, you don’t seem to have support from anyone-not even your parents. Learn to build bridges and quit blaming others for your issues. Change majors, like your Dad recommended, biology?
You can buy your own horse after you establish your career.
Reread your previous posts.
Will anything change if you transfer?
Done getting off my high horse.
Mom of three
My horse was “Ginger”