<p>made4uchicago,</p>
<p>I don’t know that there’s much I can say right now… but really it is going to get better. One of the dangers of striving for excellence is that your path will frequently be rocky … as it is right now. It is hard, right now around the holidays - but you are not alone. Something good is going to happen. Could be Chicago, could be another fine school. </p>
<p>Once you feel more like yourself, please make sure that your school list is solid. Once you are sure of that, <em>then</em> work on reserving your deferral.</p>