<p>marshallmeyer12, thank you so much for your reply! yes I understand SJC is self selective. I find myself fall in love with SJC, and I’m worried whether “she” would accept me.</p>
<p>my English proficency is a problem, I guess I can get TOEFL 100+, but 110+ is not really easy for me.( I come from China)</p>
<p>Another thing worries me is about the books that influence me, which would be an important part of my essay. The books that are important to me are quite unconventional, I’m not sure SJC admission committee feel comfortable or not. The first important book to me is Psychology of Sex, by Haverlock Ellis, read in High school. The second is Media Control in China, by He Qinglian, which is published outside of China. The third is Zhao Ziyang:Captive Conversations（about the June 4,1989 incident), published in HK.</p>
<p>If I be true to myself, taking about China’s history, politics, and the democratization struggle, will SJC committe members feel uncomfortable?
(I haven’t read much literature or philosophy so far, but i am willing to)</p>