<p>Yeah, unfortunately I started to tear up before S got in the car with H to leave this morning. I really try to be all smiles and sunshine until after he is out of the driveway. I doubt this will ever change. It’s my emotions telling me I loved having him home and am sad to see him go. But it goes away rather quickly now, unlike the first week after he left to start college.</p>
<p>I remember all the years growing up and visiting my grandma on her farm and as we would drive away, she would be dabbing at her eyes. The first time I noticed, it made me really realize how much she loved seeing us. Letters and phone calls aren’t quite the same.</p>