I feel how you just want to end and just go home but you don’t want to disappoint anyone. That is also my dilemma and the only thing holding me back from booking a ticket home.
I’ve also talked to my parents but i hold back on the stuff i’m really feeling because i am afraid they cannot understand what i am going through. I’m still really confused whether to go home early or not. I want to do this for them but i’m starting to feel really down just imagining what it will feel like to go through the whole program. I feel so stuck in my current situation.
I actually look around the net for forums talking about something like this but so far this is the only one i found that i can relate with. It’s just really hard to imagine going through this alone and i find it comforting to read about other’s experience with this kind of thing.
I hope you get the courage to write to your parents. I do hope they’ll understand what you ate going through and be supportive with whatever decision you are gonna make. For the meantime hold on and keep strong. 