Hello everyone~
I don’t know I thought I would update you all haha.
So the homesickness has passed. I’m still having problems eating, sadly… I have lost a lot of weight. The initial anxiety I am able to control, to some extent, with meditation but I think the fear kinda stuck, I’m still working on it.
Even though everything has gotten a little better, I think I still stick with my decision to leave early. I don’t know why, but I have this urge to just go out and travel. I don’t really want to stay here for another 3 months, mainly because for some reason my love for the country, culture and language has kind of just went away. I thought, where I am right now is the ideal and might be the only time where I can just travel and not have to worry about any responsibilities. I want to visit all my friends in college, do a tour of Europe, do a road trip somewhere, paint and bake all day long.
I’ve consulted 5 friends about this and I have been thinking about it for the past 2 weeks now, I told myself I would give it another 1-2 weeks and talk it through with my parents before I make a final decision.
Thank you all for giving me your advice and listening to my concerns and venting~