<p>I am in the process of pulling the data out of the book Calmom linked, and harvesting the rest of the information posted here in the last 24 hours. </p>
<p>Marite, you are so right. What struck me this morning - and what I didn’t post - is that while I have wonderful support in real life, and I am very, very grateful for that support, there is no Epistrophy magic coming out of it; there is no Calmom or NYMomof2 or anyone else; I am not getting this sort of support. My real life support is wonderful - I get fed, driven places, reminded to work out, exercise, help with tasks etc., and the physical presence of other persons who care about me - people are arranging their lives to ensure that I am never, ever left alone or unassisted. That’s all terrific - but what I need MOST of all is information, and help translating that information. (I have asked my real life support for this, and they do try, but, they are either too emotionally close to the situation, or, Epistrophy & company are simply far, far better at it…bottom line, I am not getting this in real life)…I also need survival stories; I am a sort of black and white kind of person, and I need empirical data to remind me, in my darkest hours, that this is a battle that CAN be won. Here, I get survival stories; in real life, no one can really find any, or, they are sickened by the information they encounter on the internet (specific to lung cancer, it’s all scary/bad - it’s very hard to drill through to find the golden nuggets of inspiring, uplifting information). </p>
<p>Anyone who does not believe in cyber-communities is sadly mistaken.</p>
<p>Cherry blossom walk? I’m up for it, but, I have an early dinner commitment Saturday, and then I have a 4:00 a.m. conference call Monday, and I need more rest than normal…can we either do Sunday mid-day or morning, or, what about next weekend, which is wide open for me at this point (???). </p>
<p>Many thanks for all of the prayers. I am certain this is in God’s hands now.</p>