Okay, listen to this, and ingest it: What you did in HS no longer matters for college. The colleges don’t expect teenagers to make sound judgments when they are still exploring life as teens.
Next steps, try to build a bridge and get over it. Quit looking over your shoulder because you really DON’T need to do this to yourself.
You have done extremely well, so this should be your focus.
Now that you have been at a community college, the universities only care about how you’ve done in college. You need to forgive yourself and move onto your next goal which is transferring.
You can develop your own mantra: “I am proud of what I have achieved! I am really proud of myself! I can do this because I have proved that I am very capable!”
Please make sure to run the NPC’s on each of the colleges websites where you hope to gain admission.
Also, you’ve picked some really tough colleges for admission. If you are rejected, you cannot take it personally because there are just too many good applicants from everywhere and they wont just reject you, they may reject most applicants if they don’t have a space.
Remember that a number of the schools, that you’ve listed, have to have space for you. This means that a current student there needs to drop out to make room for you.
So, just in case, start looking at some safeties, in-state, and how you can fund those schools.
Look at the financial aid pages. Look at local job prospects and start putting some funds together. You need to be able to pay for your health insurance and your personal expenses.