<p>I’m so glad Gwen Fairfax mentioned mental health counseling. That’s the first thing that came to mind when I read your post. Eating is a strange activity. Even though, like breathing, we do it to keep our bodies alive, we also use it as a substitute for love we want but don’t get, as a way to rebel against restrictions that we resent, and as reaction to boredom. An eating disorder (which is, after all, what you are describing) requires professional help to overcome. Good luck, and please come back and let us know how you’re doing.</p>