Just an fyi, we parents on the forum are here to provide a listening ear and let you bounce off ideas that you may have. No one is here judging you so don’t take anything said in a bad way as everyone wants you to succeed in whatever it is you set out to do. Have faith that everything will work out for the best and the way it is supposed to. Some experiences we encounter are to teach us and challenge us so that we gain confidence in our abilities so that we can do bigger and better things. Have faith in your abilities and don’t lose hope but at the same time be proactive towards achieving what it is you want. Take the help of professionals when needed so that you make progress.