The one thing that sticks out to me in your post was when you said, “I’m not good enough for those schools…” Please don’t think that for a moment. You absolutely ARE good enough for any school. You must remember it’s a matter of numbers. Sheer numbers of applicants. Please think of it like winning the lottery. That’s really what it comes down to. There are so many qualified and overqualified students that it’s just a matter of having your application randomly selected out of a huge pile.
Most people have never won the lottery and you didn’t win the admissions lottery but maybe you will at something else in your life. Maybe it will be in love, or a fantastic job, or great health.
Always remember, the best is yet to come. Have faith that where you are going is where you are meant to be. Great things will happen for you. I think you will look back at this experience with a lot of wisdom for someone else.
Congratulations on being such a successful student and having am amazing future!