<p>I would just like to say that it was a mistake “venting” on CC in the first place. I have requested for this thread to be deleted. Call me naive, but I never expected this thread to turn into a conversation bashing me. If anyone cares, I am not leaving BC. I have not filled out any transfer apps and don’t intend to. Since the inception of this thread, I have made a change in friend groups and truly feel it has been for the best. The people I now spend most of my time with are down-to-earth, kind, and understanding of me. As bcgirl2 mentioned, unfortunately BC stereotypes are true for the most part, so finding people like the ones I have been hanging out with lately is not easy. I don’t mean to put down BC, but it’s just what I’ve experienced. BC isn’t for everyone, but I do believe everyone can find their niche.</p>
<p>Bigdoglover, threetreasurs, Rydert, kelly37, familykCT, SaintSaens, and rubyjane1, thank you for your helpful comments. Kindness is a rare thing on CC nowadays.</p>
<p>collegecarla, you really hurt my feelings. I hope that makes you feel good about yourself as a parent. I never once blamed BC for anything; I simply said that the school’s environment PERSONALLY is not best for me. Plenty of people are genuinely happy at BC (even people who aren’t the stereotypical BC student). I don’t mean to discourage any prospective students from coming to BC, but as a BC senior said to me, “It takes a certain amount of strength to stay at BC if you don’t fit the mold.” I’ll end with that because I don’t want to start any further arguments, and I would appreciate if everyone stopped posting on this thread.</p>
<p>But for clarification, </p>
<p>1) I am NOT in the honors program at BC. I am in the DEPARTMENTAL honors program for chemistry. Only my chem classes are honors courses. I took A LOT of AP classes in high school, including AP Chem (which I got a 5 on), so please don’t make assumptions from my low SAT/ACT that I am not capable of honors-level work. </p>
<p>2) Yes, my word choice was not the best when I said “paranoid.” I admitted this in my “disclaimer” when I warned that my diction would be crappy. It’s just that in East Coast culture, a lot of people are very reserved in sharing their opinions and emotions, so it can very hard to decipher where you stand with a person. Two of my TRUE friends at BC (who happen to be white and upper middle class… so no it’s not just me with “issues” as posters have so rudely dismissed me) have voiced similar concerns, so please stop taking my words and twisting them around to make me sound like a crazy person.</p>
<p>3) I have mild BPD. I do not suffer from depression or paranoia. These three things are vastly different. I believe I said “I feel paranoid” and that I have slipped into “depressive thoughts,” not that I am clinically depressed or suffering from paranoia. It was a mistake mentioning that I have BPD on this board because there is such a stigma associated with the disorder that posters feel the need to bring it up every 5 seconds and make me feel like a crazy person.</p>
<p>edit:cptofthehouse, I understand where you’re coming from, but you have to understand that I have very mild BPD. I was completely happy throughout high school, I’m completely happy when I go home, I am completely happy with the new friends I hang out with now, etc. As other BC students like bcgirl2 and mn have mentioned, BC culture is sort of a difficult thing to explain and many of the stereotypes hold true, making it a difficult environment to be in for someone who has been raised in a nurturing, friendly, diverse environment her entire life. But thank you for your opinion and for being so polite.</p>