<p>MYOMOO, I keep coming upon your posts and I find myself worrying about you–I sincerely think you need to see a therapist, or even call a crisis hotline. I know it may not be very acceptable in your culture of origin, but your posts are increasingly desperate in tone, and perhaps due to language issues, you sometimes sound entitled, other times, overly self-abasing, sometimes almost irrational. All of this is causing you to receive harsh replies from people, which I am concerned could push you over the edge. You need someone who is totally on your side to hear you out and help you. I understand it–you applied all over the place, but really only want the UCs. I know of so many cases like this. RPI with $17,000 scholarship = UC with no scholarship, so it can’t really be the money, which makes other posters frustrated with the way you ignore RPI as an option. I understand it is UC or bust. I wish you had applied to ALL the UCs instead, but that is water under the bridge. File all your appeals, especially if you think they are missing information. Meanwhile, you will still have to figure out your finances, and more importantly, get some help for your mental distress.</p>