<p>I wish I could succumb to senioritis, but I can’t because of IB. It’s as if all these years of school have ingrained in me this mindless desire or need to work hard. I hate having to work so hard everyday and know that there’s a huge chance that all these colleges will reject me because I’m too “stereotypical Asian”. Guess what? That really sucks because I actually like science research and music, etc but it doesn’t help me stand out. I mean, at least I don’t want to become a doctor or engineer like every other asian. Scientist!!! Does that make me different??? Nobody can understand how stressed out I feel about college acceptances and every time I tell somebody I’m a senior they ask where I’m going to college. I DON’T KNOW! I haven’t been accepted anywhere yet except my safeties (which I’m still grateful for). There’s always one person that teachers pay attention to, but fail to realize that the rest of their students are smart, too. I hate how people constantly sympathize with one person, even though that student’s freaking floating compared to the rest of us. Oh, yeah, I complete understand, it’s soooo hard getting accepted to Harvard EA and being a finalist in every single competition. Yeah, the rest of us nobodies have it waaay easier. God bless.</p>
<p>And I feel horrible about it, but I really want to move out. I’m so tired of the constant bickering that goes on in my home and I just need a break from it all before I go nuts.</p>