Agree with the above but what are you doing to meet people besides apps? As suggested do activities that you enjoy and hopefully Mr Right is doing the same thing and you connect. In my area many volunteer to something meaningful, play sand volley ball or whatever. At least if you meet doing something you enjoy you know that person has the same interests. That’s a good start.
Therapy didn’t work so you stopped. You met someone but didn’t give them a chance do you left early. That is a pattern.
Also physical beauty means little as you get older but internal beauty never gets old. If you don’t like /love yourself it comes across to others. That is what counseling can help with. Biofeedback can work better then meds…
My niece finally met someone at 32 and most of her friends were married much younger. She was picky to a fault. Very attractive. She finally married last year… Dated a ton. Sometimes when you just stop looking your partner is right in front of you if you give yourself the chance to see him.