Thanks very much. It’s great to have a different perspective.
Sorry for the confusion but the fact is my mom (and dad) will support me financially. she loves me too much what can I say. she just wants to be sure that it’s really 100% what I want, which I am not. I’m in the middle ground, and there’s really no one else in my life beside my parents that can advise me on this. so I truly, deeply appreciate you guys for all the advice and perspectives.
As for linguistics, I did choose it for 2 reasons - science was too hard and I gave up on it (stupid mistake now I see); and as an English non-native, I’ve taken a rather unintuitive perspective to the language and I do like bits of linguistics (phonetics, acquisition, psycholinguistics). But, I can’t help questioning if linguistics is the ultimate answer, if I might have the chance to find and do something I love, the chance I could’ve taken in high school when I was an inch from applying to an LAC. part of the reason I’m doing this is to try and undo my regrets, and that puts me in danger of bias and wishful thinking.
So I agree with @Lindagaf that at this point I should keep doing research and try to figure out the next best step, although if I were to meet the April 1 deadline then time is a bit of an issue as well. Anyhow, thanks so much for all your suggestions.
Do you mind maybe sharing a bit more about your experience of the UK & US models? thanks!