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Sounds to me like medicine is not for you, for whatever reason(s). But rather than state it outright and have to confront whatever drives or people think you should be a doctor, you are doing it passively. </p>
<p>Look at the students around you, at your “pretty selective university”. How many of them do you think believe that if they wanted to be a doctor the right approach would be to hardly try any problems, even while knowing others around them are studying almost obsessively? How many do you think realize grades are HUGE in deciding who gets into med school, and after a bad semester would repeat the same thing for two more?
What an an interesting way of putting things. That homework that “NEEDS” to get done first are in classes that you signed up for, in a major that you chose. After one rough semester most people that were serious about medicine would have realized something needed to change, and changed it. </p>
<p>I could go on, but no need. You’ve dug yourself a deep hole, one that even a strong student would have trouble climbing out of. But I don’t think its an accident you are where you are. At some subconscious level this is exactly the position you wanted to be in, able to gracefully turn away from medicine while citing the pressures of all the other “homework that NEEDS to get done” and perhaps a touch of poor time management skills along with a helping of blame directed at your old HS for not infusing said skills into you.</p>
<p>No shame in this. Medicine isn’t for everyone. While you have the time left in college I hope you find the willingness to really work to find out what IS right.</p>