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<p>Actually, (going into AP Chemistry) I loved chemistry and science in general, and hated history, and had held those opinions for as long as I could remember. I remember spending a lot of time whining (the year before AP Chem) about how much I hated history (in which I did not excel, gradewise), and spent my whole day looking forward to Chemistry I (in which I did excel, gradewise). I knew that I liked English, but I really truly believed (deep down) that I was more of a science person. I hoped to become a research scientist.</p>
<p>However, when asked to perform at a high level in science, I failed. I absolutely failed. (I remained an optimist until about March of that class, though. My grades went up a statistically insignificant amount after that, actually.) It was more than a little bit heart-breaking. When asked to perform at a high level in history, though, I stepped up to the plate and enjoyed the subject for the first time. I do know how to study for concepts–the science classes that I liked (Chemistry I and Physics I, which was based on the AP Physics B curriculum, but more difficult and a little bit slower) were very basic but difficult classes, requiring a rigorous understanding of the concepts, not so much the finicky details. (Also, if I liked memorizing for the sake of it, I might have liked biology–going into high school, I had hoped to become a biologist. Instead I was just like no. Basic bio is stupid. I understand that at the high levels it’s different, now, but didn’t then. So I switched my hopes to chemistry and physics.) </p>
<p>I can memorize stuff, but that’s not what I was looking for in a science. It’s not particularly fun. However, I can go through my whole physics textbook, still, and explain to you each concept that we covered. I could have gone through my whole chemistry I textbook doing the same thing, but after AP I cannot. I still have no idea what went wrong with AP Chem, considering that I could do better chemistry after AP (770 on SAT II, 5 on AP) than after Chem I, definitely, but after AP Chemistry my ability to actually explain why on earth I was doing X had totally gone out the window. I used all the concept-learning methods I applied successfully during that same year to physics, and had applied successfully to chemistry I, so it’s not like I neglected concepts and so came out unable to explain any of them. Concepts are what I focused on! (I also had a chemistry tutor.) I just somehow /still/ came out not being explain any of the concepts. (With a few exceptions. Nothing can erode my understanding of the basics of gas law.)</p>
<p>At this point, if I try to take chemistry again, I will fail, you’re right. The joy has gone out of it, and the pessimism will eat me alive. But then? I do think it was innate. Again, I understand that this may not be at all convincing for you, but since it happened to me, no amount of statistics or reasonable counter-arguments (like all of yours) can convince /me/ that it’s not innate.</p>
<p>No regrets now though! History has totally converted me. :)</p>