<p>To give you a more complete picture of my situation and to answer your questions, let me tell you what I’ve been doing these past 2 years since college graduation. I’ve been working with Voc. Rehab. (NY State’s VESID). Before they provide any other services, they send all their new clients for Diagnostic Vocational Evaluation (DVE). It’s a 15 day long group evaluation and consists of tests, group work, as well as informal observations of the client’s social interaction, ability to think on one’s feet, etc. There were no actual work simulations, though. While I’ve done well on most of their paper-and-pencil tests, except the one which was similar to the Performance section of WAIS (completion of incomplete pictures, short-term memory, processing speed, noting details) which I bombed, my evaluator noted that I did not interact as much with the other clients, did not always understand their conversations and that when I tried to join their conversations, my responses came with a delay. I needed a longer time to think, etc. and the overall recommendation was that I should first go to Work Adjustment Training (WAT) in a clerical setting and then “would be a good candidate for Supported Employment in a very structured and supportive setting”. However, I did not want to do WAT as I wanted to start earning money sooner, did not like the stigma and felt that it would dampen my job prospects, so my Voc. Rehab. counselor sent me to a computer training school for a 3-months MS Office course (Word, Excel, Powerpoint and Outlook) to prepare me for an office job, which in retrospect, was a waste of my time as it was intended for people who’ve never used a computer before and I learned very little new stuff, and what I did learn, I forgot by now. </p>
<p>After completion of the course, the training school sent me for an “internship” at an agency for people with developmental disabilities (they have group homes, day programs, health services, etc.). The placement was their suggestion as I was told it’s a nonprofit supported by the government and a good potential place for me to work at. I volunteered at their central office, but this was clearly a wrong place for me. I could only do the rote tasks: filing, stuffing envelopes, sorting, but nothing which required understanding as despite me wanting and trying to comprehend everything I was asked to do, I couldn’t master it due to my disability. Perhaps if I were given more time, I would’ve have cognitively mastered the tasks, but this just wasn’t the right setting. If you are wondering, this MR/DD organization routinely accepts interns from 2 and 4 year colleges. Eventually, this disability agency just told me not to come anymore. </p>
<p>Simultaneously with volunteering at this MR/DD organization, Voc. Rehab. sent me to a job placement agency in my neighborhood, to their direct placement program, as I felt uneasy with supported employment because of the stigma and fear of being relegated to a dead-end job. The job placement person just sent my resume and cover letter to administrative assistant/clerical jobs in response to ads posted on Craig’s List and Idealist. I also sent out a few applications on my own through these sites. I did get several interviews, but these jobs were clearly over my head: required quick-thinking, multi-tasking, interaction with people, and of course, I never got hired. I also took a “Keyboard Specialist” exam with the NY State civil service (consists of spelling, grammar, clerical checking and letter formatting) and scored very well, but the actual jobs are not pure data entry but rather entry-level administrative jobs and again I did not get hired from the interviews. After 6 months of unsuccessful work with the direct placement program, supported employment was seriously considered for me again, but at the last moment my Voc. Rehab. counselor decided I should stay in my current program for now. The old job placement person left the agency and now I am working with a different one. She is trying to apply to library and bookstore jobs for me, but I haven’t gotten a single interview with them yet. Actually, the NYPL position I applied to is a part-time “Page” position designed for h.s. students (but they made an exception for me as I have a disability). I interviewed with their HR person, and presumably she did forward my application to individual libraries, but I’ve gotten no responses so far. As for bookstores, my job developer applied to Barnes and Noble for me for a bookseller position, and she even called them up, but they have already hired for the Christmas season and wouldn’t consider new candidates until after the season ends as they don’t know yet how many people they would need.</p>
<p>Meanwhile, I’ve been serving as a research subject for visual perception experiments in the psych. lab at Columbia University(looking at flashing squares on the computer) where I spend about 4 hours each day and am paid $9 an hour for it. I got this “job” through my brother who goes there and used to work in this lab. Of course, this is not my only source of income. I live with my parents and am supported by them and since graduating from college, I get SSI for a psychiatric diagnosis. I really don’t think I have a mental illness, though, and believe whatever issues may be attributed to mental health are actually a result of my neurodevelopmental disability (cerebral palsy).</p>