<p>Before I start, I’m just gonna warn everyone that I have a habit of being verbose, and this post is no exception.</p>
<p>So, I have a bit of a dilemma. Early decision application deadlines are coming up in two weeks, and although I’ve filled out both apps, I need to decide which one I’m actually going to submit. Right now I’m undecided between NYU and, well, Columbia. </p>
<p>The question isn’t whether or not I have a chance at either of these schools. Honestly, there’s always a chance, regardless of how slim. In addition, applying ED increases that chance, even if only by a hair’s width. And while I have had people tell me to use my early decision application to go for a reach school, I also want to be realistic about it–I don’t want to throw away a perfectly good early decision application on a school that I had exactly a hair’s width of getting into. I want to reach for the clouds, not the moon. </p>
<p>Both schools are reaches for me. My standardized test scores might hurt me more than they help. I have a 2030 SAT I score and a 30 ACT score. I’m retaking the ACTs this month and took my subject tests on the 6th, so those results are still precariously up in the air. My grades are good, not stellar; I have a 4.141 and my senior course load is as follows: Advanced Creative Writing, Advanced Photography, AP Calc AB, AP English Literature, AP US Gov/Politics, Global Literature, AP Spanish V, and Contemporary Literature. </p>
<p>I can’t call my EC’s outstanding either, not by any stretch of the word. I haven’t saved a third world country from starvation; nothing even close, in fact. But all of my EC’s/achievements have a definitive pattern: Creative Writing Club, published three times in the school Lit Mag, publish my own movie reviews online, was nominated for the NCTE Achievement in Writing awards last year, superior rating at Ohio music contest in the categories of solo and ensemble (piano and clarinet, respectively), played piano for 11 years, founded and am president of Amnesty International Club at my school, dedicated an entire year to the theme of raising awareness and keeping up awareness of the genocide in Darfur, Politics Debate Club, contributor to the school newspaper, nominated to participate in Peope to People leadership forum in the Theater and Arts. This last was probably my proudest achievement. I spent ten days on the Columbia campus this past summer and learned first hand all about the world of film and theater in NYC. Basically, what I would be saying to both colleges would be that I go crazy over the arts and hot-blooded over politics, and that I have absolutely no talent or interest in science or math.</p>
<p>If I have a hook, it’s simply my determination to dedicate the rest of my life to the arts. I want to write for a living, and frequently have visions of fulfilling the bohemian life in New York City, although I suspect the reality will be much less romantic and much more penny-pinching. Moreover, I want to write for film for a living. So naturally, NYU and Columbia are my dream schools. </p>
<p>I am not spectactular academically, and this is what holds me back from applying ED to Columbia. I feel like, even if I have enormous passion and considerable skill in creative writing, that’s only good enough if I’m top-notch in every other aspect of the student as well–that’s what is expected and seen of Columbia students, isn’t it? I want to attend Columbia almost as much I want to spend the rest of my life around writers and filmmakers, but imagine how devastating it would be if I fettered away my ED on a school I had a laughably small chance of being admitted into, and on top of that also got rejected to NYU. I want to make a smart choice here. </p>
<p>Right now, when I apply to either of these schools, I am crossing my fingers on my ability to write. I can’t tell you how thrilled I was when I saw that Columbia’s application had sections on your favorite films and books, because these are the things I already spend most of my everyday life talking about. I feel like I might be able to stand out on these often underestimated portions of the application…but then again, we’re all biased when it comes to ourselves. In truth, my passion might not shine through like I need it to on a paper application. Right now, when I apply to either of these schools, I would almost solely be relying on my essay to blow the admissions officers away. Something that scares me, because while the difference between a good essay and a terrible essay may be obvious, the difference between a good essay and a mindblowing one is quite subjective. Another thing that holds me back is the fact that I know I’m no unique snowflake. I’m well aware that plenty of people wanting to go to Columbia are aspiring artists like myself, well aware that there are plenty of people who profess their undying loyalty to the craft. </p>
<p>So I’m at a standstill. There’s a tug-o-war in my mind, except both sides are equally strong and unrelenting. What do you think? Is it a bit stupid and unrealistic to apply early to Columbia, and should I simply reinforce my chances at NYU by applying early there? Or is the risk of applying to Columbia worth it? I know what I want the answer to be, but I urge you to refrain from simply telling me what I want to hear.</p>